o0o Its been a wild ride for the last few weeks, and a ride that I’m still in the midst of, and I’ve gotta say – that some of it I’m not lovin’ so much!! I’d been starting to ‘spiral’ a bit after I last posted, but then… Continue reading »
o0o It’s been a while since my last post (about 6 weeks or so), and I apologize if you’ve missed me – although it is the season for most people of busy-ness and stress – so it’s probably the case that you haven’t even noticed I haven’t been around…!… Continue reading »
o0o I’m sooooooo PROUD of My Love right now!! Its been something that I have tried for, asked for, and wanted for over a decade – and last week it finally happened.
o0o SO…here I am once again sitting at the airport, waiting to get on a flight and I’m southbound again to go and help with tidying up yet more affairs of my deceased Mumma and her very-much-alive Hubby (TnT) – who is now in Aged Care. Its been a… Continue reading »
o0o Well the poor counsellor probably needed a bex and a lie-down after she had finished her first hour with me the other day! It was pretty much like shaking up a coke bottle then flipping off the lid. A whole damn lot of built-up stuff just came spewing forth… Continue reading »
o0o I broke. Plain and simple – i broke… This past fortnight – my mind just couldn’t keep itself together anymore, and i broke… I went to the Doctor back before we went to New Zealand, just for a general annual checkup; and when we were finishing up, I… Continue reading »
o0o Breathe. You’re going to be okay.
o0o Recently – I have felt myself spiraling in panic. This is not a ‘new’ sensation for me. When parts of my life are not running smoothly and for some reason,
o0o A year ago today my heart shattered into a million little pieces… As is usual for anyone when grieving, I felt like I would never be free of the feeling of total and utter devastation that I was going through. A year ago, I was heartbroken and… Continue reading »
o0o Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, a bad relationship – or some of the elements of a bad relationship – follow you through life… My Father had a bad relationship with alcohol. When he was alive, I don’t recall a time when I ever thought my Father… Continue reading »
This morning started in the way no Mothers ever want it to. A missed call on my phone before 7am, and a voice message. Checked the voice message, and it was someone I didn’t know, telling us that our second youngest son had been in a motorbike accident…. Continue reading »
Ready to cheer me on? I told you a week or two ago in the smoking gun post, that I was going to do it – and now here I am!! As of last night – I am a non-smoker. A former smoker, an ex-smoker – call it… Continue reading »
. The fact that you’re struggling doesn’t make you a burden. It doesn’t make you unlovable or undesirable or undeserving of care. It doesn’t make you too much or too sensitive or too needy…It makes you human. Everyone struggles. Everyone has a difficult time coping, and at times, we all… Continue reading »
. There has (rightfully!!) been a lot going on in the media of late – about bullying, which has been particularly spurred on by the tragic suicide of a young country girl, after being horrifically bullied by her peers. Also in the media of late – there has much much… Continue reading »
. Today is different. Today I got out of bed quite well rested. I had a really decent sleep last night, because it rained through the night, and i always sleep soooo much better when it rains. I have also taken a fortnight off work – which actually winds… Continue reading »
. Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy.
. I’ve been a bit remiss with writing, I know, but I’ve needed some ‘me’ time, and some healing time… The rehoming of Digby hit me – HARD – and still does some days, but its thankfully getting less intense with each day – and I can now at least
. I had always imagined that this was always going to be a really special year. Grandma & Grumpa would be 90, Uncle John 60, me 50, You 30, Rian 25 and Tom 21. Amazing landmarks for our Family, worthy of awesome celebration. But that wasn’t to be…. I… Continue reading »
. 31 days, and I’ll be HOME. It isn’t where we live, but it’s where I feel I belong. It’s the place I want to make our home. When I get off the plane, even though we’ve still got a couple of hours drive ahead of us, I feel like… Continue reading »
. It’s been a bit of a long difficult week… It’s 11 days ciggie free, which has been nice. And the breathing has been soooo much better!! Actually, I don’t recall any time in the last week or so, that I’ve really been all that breathless – and that includes… Continue reading »